writing in journal, practicing forgiveness

Forgiveness is an act of mercy

Have you ever withheld forgiveness from someone? You got mad, but instead of letting it go, you got your knickers in a twist & decided to be mad for a while.

Maybe they hurt your feelings, overlooked you, took you for granted, or just hit a nerve.

Full Confession? I had a misunderstanding with a loved one this week. It should have been no big deal, but before I knew it I looked like Godzilla hangin’ off the Empire State Building, breathing fire, threatening to burn it all down.

I was mad, hurt & I didn’t really wanna forgive them yet, so I decided to have a good old-fashioned pity party about it.

I know FULL WELL my loved one didn’t mean to hurt me. But I let my insecurity drive the bus & instead of giving them grace & moving on, I held a tight fist around their wrongdoing & made a big ole mess’a things.
But wait, there’s more.

Because this precious Loved One adores me in spite of my Godzilla-self, there’s a gorgeous arrangement of flowers on my desk, delivered just a few hours ago.

So here I sit, trying to write, flowers reminding me just how funny God can be sometimes.

Why? Because this week’s episode is all about mercy & grace.

Of course it is.

As it turns out, mercy & grace are hard to write about when you’re feeling particularly Godzilla-ish.

You might be thinking, why would she admit this? Why not just write a happy little blog about how Jesus forgave us & pretend all is well?
It sure would be easier. But that’s not how I roll.

If we are gonna live authentic lives, we are going to have to be transparent about our struggles. And today when I sat down to write this, I was struggling with forgiveness.

I stopped writing to make amends with my loved one.

Peace restored.

Not only between us, but between myself and the Lord too.

I don’t want to live a duplicitous life – telling you to love and forgive while I’m withholding it from the ones I love.
I’m reminded once again that Jesus pours out mercy and grace over our lives without hesitation, with forgiveness that covers a multitude of sins. Seems only right to extend to others that which He gives us so readily.

So forgive ’em – even if you don’t wanna. Even if they don’t deserve it.

Forgiveness is an act of mercy itself.

Thank you for reading!

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