Confident and…Capable??!
On the day the podcast launched, Oct 11, 2022, Jamie gave me this notebook. “I thought it just fit,” she said.
“You are capable of amazing things” it read in pearlescent gold.
Me…capable?
I’ve failed Him so many times. I’ve flaked out, run away and quit more times than I can count. I was the girl who didn’t finish what I started…and I’ve started a lot of stuff.
Needless to say, I believed God had called me to this endeavor, but I had little confidence in my ability to hold up this end of the bargain.
But God.
Last year I started taking notes for the podcast episodes in my pretty new spiral – filling the pages with thoughts and ideas, edits and questions.
Lots and lots of questions.
About a month ago, I filled it up completely, something I don’t often do (how many half-filled spirals are in this house?!), and I’ve kept it on my desk as a reminder of all we’ve done this year. You, me, God.
Make no mistake – there’s not an ounce of pride in myself. This is all Jesus. Y’all have been privy to the good bad and sometimes painfully ugly episodes (it’s ok, I know. 😆)
But by His Grace, we stand on this side of 52 episodes, with most episodes for 2023 already done and several in 2024. Blows. My. Mind.
He’s continued to place people in my path with stories that blow my socks off. He’s taken me from terrified to timid to mediocre to semi-comfortable. Sometimes all in one episode 😂 but you know, I’m ok with that. I don’t ever wanna be so comfortable that I forget Who’s really in charge.
I’ve realized that perfect isn’t the goal, but giving him space to show up is.
To each guest who came on the show, MAY THE LORD BLESS YOUR FAITHFULNESS. Thank you for trusting me with your stories. The honor overwhelms me. I’m a hot mess just thinking about each of you. Man. Y’all amaze and inspire me.
Jamie well dear friend, you got a full time job this year, so it’s just me these days. But sis, I’ll never forget the way you infused my faith and held my hand. You didn’t even listen to podcasts when we began! Thank you. You are a gift.
To each of you who have called, text, prayed, emailed and encouraged me: you will never know how timely some of your words were. Thank you for standing in the gap when I was scared outta my mind and my faith was stretched past the edges.
John Lowe, I’ve jokingly called you my financial backer 😂 but the hard truth is, you’ve been the rock that held me up more times than I can count. Your faith sharpens me, your gentleness and wisdom are gifts I can never repay. Thank you for believing in me. I love you so dang much hon.
Friends, all this to say: if God has put a dream in your heart, if he’s whispered “GO!”, take that leap of faith. You’ve trusted him with your LIFE – trust him with the call over it too.
I’m not a “prosperity gospel” kinda girl, but I’ve seen too much to not believe. If he’s called you to it, it might be the hardest thing you’ve ever done, but He won’t fail you.
In HIM, With HIM – You are capable of amazing things.
“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but of power, of love and self-discipline. So do not be ashamed to testify about our Lord…but join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power of God, who has saved us and called us to a holdy life – not because of anything we have done,
but because of his own purpose and grace.”
2 Timothy 1:7-9
